on my living room floor, bawling with shame. I feel an urge to tell Paul how sorry I am, but he hasn't returned an email from me in years so it seems pointless.
I'll pack my bags and go to him right now!'FATAL ATTRACTION'Obsessive Ex Syndrome' is a recognised condition that can lead to threats, stalking and violence in extreme casesAnother part of me cynically thinks this will only work because my rebellious side will be so annoyed at being told I must think about him regularly, I will no longer want to. At first, that's true. Having to routinely think of him just drives home how much the habit has already robbed me of. But I keep up the exercise, remembering Tara's advice that I'll get out of it what I Puma Velvet Creeper put into it. Gradually, as the days pass, things begin to change.
A flood of memories comes to the surface it's as if the session with Tara has opened a Pandora's box of truth. And this includes recalling all the bad things I did to Paul a side of our story I've never really acknowledged. I constantly criticised him, called him a rubbish lover to his face and eventually kissed one of his friends in a crazed attempt to get more attention from him. After this, I sit Puma Velvet Royal Purple
sense I can't reach out and crush his head, as I'm shocked to discover I want to. We discuss my anger and I can't help the truth spilling out Paul often stood me up, didn't give me enough affection, and hid from me that he was on heavy antidepressants. Having said it, I then protest he was still amazing and we could have overcome such things. 'You would be the first woman to cure a man by love,' she says, gently. I am given tasks to do at home for five minutes each day I'm supposed to imagine myself in my happy bubble and Puma Creepers Shoes
Though Tara is pleased with my progress at our next session, I feel very anxious still, so she teaches m.
ask myself if I really want to exchange those good feelings for a life with Paul and his problems. As she tells me this, a part of my mind is still stubbornly screaming: 'Yes, I do.